Lotus like me

 Assalam alaykum. My lovelies, it has been an amazing year of experiences, gratitude, turmoils and most importantly survival. I'm thankful that I have amazing friends and family and even frenemies. I have a gazillion *I'm not sure it's a word but okay whatever😂* things to be thankful for, people to be thankful to. I've had my rough patches and so have you all, the important thing here is that we pulled through. We survived. It's not just because of ourselves. Nope. Definitely not. We have people to be thankful to and thankful for. I'll start by thanking Almighty Allah fro granting me life throughout this year. In times where I believed I was going insane, you Ya Allah helped me pull through by showing, actually giving me love and support directly and indirectly. Thank you for everything. My wonderful family. My mother, father, sisters and other relatives. Thank you for bearing with me when I was acting my worst even though you had your own problems. Th...

     Assalam alaykum and hello my lovelies. New series that I only update when releasing a series of my feelings like now. I'm crying as I'm typing this but please don't worry. I'll be fine. This year has been filled with lots of things.  I've acted so desperately for what I believed was love. It could be infatuation. But my question is " Do you feel infatuated even when the person you supposedly like and you are distant?"  I promise you as I keep listening to my playlists of sad songs and read my past texts, I cry. I see that desperate girl and I didn't know that I could have turned in to that desperate chick. The one who told her crush about the crush multiple times. The one that kept reminding him every now and then. The one that hopelessly tried to get over the crush but kept failing and falling.  The one who let her hopes rise. The one who is sitting on her bed right now, hugging her knees and crying her heart out wondering why life hurts....

Assalam alaykum and hello everyone. It's Christmas and even though I don't celebrate it, I'm writing this post to wish everyone a merry Christmas.  I've been having heavy writer's block and its almost impossible for me to find another topic to write about in the relationship series. Notice I said almost, I'm pushing my brains to the extreme.  Any ideas you have, feel free to leave them in the commments section down below. Saranghamnida everyone❤. Borahae💜💜💜.   Once again merry Christmas everyone. I love you all❤❤❤💜💜💜💜💜💜💜. Thanks so much and finally my lovelies, Allah hafeez.

                 Assalaam alaikum my lovelies. This post in one of the hardest I can attempt to write. SELF LOVE . To love one's self.  That doesn't necessarily mean going to spas, getting pedicures and etcetera. In this case, I mean to love one's self despite all the irregularities and imperfections we have.  Let me even ask Myself this question. DO I LOVE MYSELF?  I barely do. Honestly the struggle is real. When I look in a full length mirror, I see my thighs that are too fat, my stomach that isn't flat enough, my arms too muscular, my face too acne prone, and the list goes on.  I don't think about the people that wish to be in my place. I have similar to suicidal thoughts sometimes. It's not even because of my body. It's because of people's perceptions of me. Maybe I'm too annoying, I'm too intimidating *trust me, you're not the only one shocked by this*, I'm not worth it and etc. It's strange how we like belie...

Assalam alaikum. Hi guys. It's been a while and I thought why not continue with the relationship talk. One of my friends once told me that the best relationship advice comes from single people. That, my lovelies, is what motivated me to write this post. Any way this is post 2 of the relationship series and beware: My ideas might be biased based from the way I was raised, to my religion and just my way of viewing things as a person. My advice might most definitely not work for you but it won't hurt to read the point of view of others.  Today's talk is about *drum roll please* Rebounds. I as a person happen to experience crushes despite the fact that in a lot of cases I wish I didn't. Anyway, *at this point everyone can see that I use the word anyway too much😅* after being ignored and pushed away by one of my crushes/friends, a lot of people that happen to be my close friends said that I deserve better. And I quote " I wouldn't advice you to use advice giv...

           Hi guys. It's honestly been a while. Anyways I'm not in university yet. Butttttttt... I have decided to do a post on why I'm not in a romantic relationship.    First and foremost , I'm a Muslim. It's not really needed for me to have more than the simple interactions I need to have with the opposite gender in this day and age. Please don't get me wrong here. I have a lot of male friends but I honestly know where to draw the line. Secondly ,  I'm kind of an introvert. It's weird but I trust people so easily but they end up easily hurting me. I have the phobia of getting hurt. I'm afraid of a broken heart so I always over-think relationship proposals which hurts both of us in the end which I happen to apologise for. Thirdly and finally,  I'm the kind of girl that wants a serious relationship. Due to the reasons I gave above, it's kind of obvious that I'm not looking for something casual, or something I'm doing just bec...

Assalam alaikum guys. Hope you all are doing fine. As you all should know I've downloaded blogger on my tablet and it glitches unfortunately and I had a post ready about three weeks ago but unfortunately as I tried to post it, the app says it publishing and that was from about three weeks ago and it refuses to let me make changes and anyway lets just move into today's blog post. Lately, I've been uncomfortably lonely and its kinda weird. My friends are busy because they are all moving ahead in life and honestly,  I'm happy for them. Unfortunately it leaves me stranded and alone, it makes me feel strange. I remember when I used to watch what I eat because I neededto look slim at school. Now I pack on calories and cholesterol. I know right such a drastic change. I need to inspire myself and find content for you all. I need consistency. I will begin trying to be consistent as soon as possible. I promise. Plus I'll try to break out of my over consumption. After all we...

         Salam alaikum. Hi guys. Today I'd love to talk about a close friend.  Sorry about the late post. I've been quite ill. Anyway, I just realised that the best of friends aren't the ones who only impact on you and your life when they are close to you i.e. beside you, your neighbour,  or even your classmate. No ,  even though those kind of friends are important too. I'm talking about the friends who might even be at the other side of the world but still have a strong impact on your behaviour and responses to different situations.        Alhamdulillah, I resumed my taekwondo classes about a week ago and I was so nervous. I couldn't do anything well when I was being watched. My movements were too stiff, and everything thing else not so normal. I took a deep breath to relax myself and thought to myself.  I could hear his words in my head, telling me to relax and to do it as I knew it and not to m...

My name is Iman. Currently I'm 15 years old. I'm done with High School. My favourite colours include yellow ,black ,purple etc. I love eating pizza. I love Reading. I love singing, dancing, BTS lots of other things. I'm sorry I haven't updated my blog in a while. It's not really my fault. I don't have a computer to use at the moment but then I just got this really cool new device I'll be using it for my blog. Well I don't really have anything in mind as my content. I am currently writing two books 1 I'm co-authoring with a girl named Rebecca. We are using Wattpad. The one I'm co-authoring is called nymphadora and the second book I'm writing it's called once upon fall. Well my account name is mani_ali. The joint account for my second book is xXPotterHeadsXx. I'm really hoping you guys read these books. I'm currently having a writer's block and I hope to get out of that writer's block immediately so I need you guys to sho...

Hi everyone. This post is all about how to make delicious, soft white bread.  Honestly the first time I tried this, I did this by eye-balling so I'm hoping I get the measurement right. Any way just know that I didn't use a loaf pan for this. I made it on a baking tray (I couldn't find my loaf pan so...).  Ingredients One and a half cup of all- purpose flour Half a cup of warm water One tablespoon of yeast One teaspoon of granulated sugar One teaspoon of salt Ten tablespoons of all-purpose flour( for kneading and dusting) Two tablespoons of olive oil Preparation time: 5-10 mins Kneading time: 10-15 mins Baking time:  25-30 mins Let's begin Pour flour into a wide bowl. Mix with the salt then make a well in the middle.  Pour the yeast into the well. add the sugar. Add a little water (enough to make a little solution). Let it sit for a while until frothy. Add a tablespoon of olive oil and mix in everything gently.  Add...

Hi guys. Well I've been trying to act like some one I don't know. I think I am starting to feel like going to university is starting to hit me badly. Is it bad that I want to be myself when everyone wants me to grow up? I haven't even started undergoing the transition and I'm already freaking out. I might just punch the next person who tells me to grow up in the face. Honestly I'm a strangely violent person but i try not to let it show too much. Anyway,the thought of getting new friends, classmates and being in complete control of my life is a really frustrating thing. It's amazing how people actually feel happy to be going through this transition. Come to think about it... I actually want to study medicine. How am i going to react eventually? i want to hear opinions on whether people believe that this crazy fifteen year old will be able to adapt.  May the almighty Allah bless you all. Looking forward to hearing your replies. Please reply in the...

Life is about your imagination and what you do with it.  Well I started this blog because my friend had started her blog and it made her happy so I thought why not? I honestly didn't know what to name my blog so I sat down and thought about it. Then I got it. A lotus is a unique, beautiful flower and I thought why not use that in your blog? As you can see the more you think about it, the harder it might be. This is just my understanding. Yours could be different. Anyway I got the name of my blog and now I wonder, what's it gonna be about?  It's gonna be about any thing  I love and I feel like I should share with the world soo.... I think that is that about my first post. I might not post regularly but I'll honestly try to so thanks for reading. Byeeeeeee💙💙💙